My Bubbas

We were blessed with the birth of our son on August 29, 2006. He was born 15 weeks early. He was 1lb 15 1/2 ounces and 13 1/4 in. We name him Johnathan Thomas Michael Poling. JT for short. His name was a long as he was. We laughed about that. My husband didn’t want a Junior but, me and his mom threw the Michael in there. My husband’s name is Michael Thomas, so, either way you put it, he was a junior in a round about sorta way. JT was also named after his great grandfather whose name was Johnathan Thomas. I remember the first time I seen him. All I seen was a little knee in lifted up in the incubator and I totally fell in love with that knee. From that day forward I promised him that I would do everything I could to make sure that he was loved and would one day come home healthy and whole. Well, the Lord had other plans for JT. JT was born with 2 holes in his heart and was on a ventilator for breathing. He was over 3 months early and oh boy did he fight everyday of his life. At 5 days of life he had a failed heart operation to close a pda and at 10 days of life he had an operation for NEC which is Necrotizing Entercolitis. This is basically dead bowel. He came through both surgeries like a champ. He also had several other surgeries, another heart surgery and 3 other bowel surgeries and 2 surgeries on his eyes for Retinopathy of Prematurity (ROP). JT needed a small bowel/liver transplant that was never to be because he had not yet gotten his hole in his heart fixed and we learned that it wouldn’t be able to be fixed because if they closed it, he wouldn’t make it through the surgery. On May 17th our precious boy left us. He went home healed and whole. Our prayers were answered but, not the way that we wished them to be. Through out his short life, we were blessed beyond measure. A little preemie that wasn’t supposed to last the first 24 hours of his life, we were blessed with 8 1/2 wonderful months. God was there for us and with us and holding us up through out this time. He sent many angels into our lives to help us also, whether it was prayer, financial, friends we had never had before, support and love. And with out any of the them, I am sure the orchestra that was JT’s life wouldn’t have been so rich with the blessing we received.

I miss my Bubbas everyday with everything I have. My heart broke into a million pieces that day. God answered my last prayer and that was when it was time for him to go that he not be alone and not alone he was. He was surrounded by so many family and friends that there wasn’t much room in that room we were in. I thank God everyday for that. For giving me the opportunity to be a mother to him for the last time and supporting him in passing away from this world to the next.

So, this page is for my son. I love and miss you so much and I know you are being well taken care of and gloriously happy playing up there in heaven. Until we meet again my precious boy, this is for you…..

A poem……..
A gift of love was given,
For just a little while;
A gift of love and laughter,
In a precious little child.

Someone to steal your heart away,
A little hand to hold;
Tiny footprints ‘cross your life,
Now left upon your soul.

The echoes of soft laughter,
The sweetness of that face;
The child who brought you so much joy,
Will never be replaced.

So take each loving memory,
Of that precious little child;
In knowing a gift came down from God,
If for just a little while.

Sleep sweet angel, for all is quiet now,
Let my kiss rest upon your innocent brow,
Your sweet smile lives in the warm summer sun.
Thoughts of you are comfort, when the day is done,
The magic of your goodness dances in the autumn leaves.
Your melody sings in the wind that, echoes through the trees.
sleep my precious angel, forever you will shine
the pure light of Love within this heart of mine

Just starting out…..

A big whopping 1lb 15 1/2 oz. 13 1/4 inches. The length of a barbie doll

In cincy wating for heart surgery and a big whopping 4lbs.

My man lookin like santa. Here’s looking at you baby!

All of us…. Man oh man there are a lot of us!

Smiley Central I just love that smile!

More Big Boy smiles

Praying for Mommy and Stacy because we have issues!

Getting his buggy ride outside

MMMMM……. I love dum dum pops. Hey mom don’t wipe my face off and scare them again with the blue lips.

All dressed up looking like the man of the year.

Whoa momma can I burp or what. That really set those dinging bells off didn’t it???

12 Responses

  1. Did you write the poem? It was so full of love, tenderness and compassion. I loved the pictures and his smile is WOW.

    May you find comfort and joy this Sunday. You are a wonderful MOM.

    Oh no I didn’t write the poems. I got them from a friend and I love them they say so much.

  2. Thank you for sharing.

  3. Jt is such a beautiful baby and his smile is too precious. I wonder if Jenna and him are buddies in heaven, she loved to ‘mother’ little children that were younger than her.

    I will be praying for you a lot this week, as I know your anniversary of JT’s heaven day is coming up.


  4. Your photo’s and memories are so precious, Bobbie.
    JT has the most precious smile! So big and bright.

    I will be praying for you as his Heavenly Birthday is approaching. (((Bobbie)))

  5. Bobbie,
    Thinking of you today. I know I haven’t said much before but I prayed for JT with you. These pictures are so sweet. What a smile!
    Now I pray that God will continue to strengthen you each day. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  6. Bobbie,
    I revisited you blog on JT today and the love is so evident. I smiled as I looked at each beautiful picture. What an inspiration JT has been for people who he never knew. He had spunk. Did he get that from mom or dad?

    ((((Hugs)))) Ginger is trying to teach me how to write computer language LOL

  7. JT was a handsome, handsome boy. Thank you for sharing him with us.

  8. To the dearest of families.

    What a lovely, heartwarming story.

    Your son is gorgeous and very handsome. He is lucky to have you as his parents.

    The way I think of things is all children go to one place where it is full of happiness and companionship.

    God bless him, your angel

  9. I am so sorry. He has such a gorgeous smile… I hope my Nathan and your JT are playing like crazy up there. Christmas is tough for me. Very tough. (((Bobbie)))

  10. That is such a sweet story. I wish it had a different ending… but what a blessing to have him for so long and perfect miracle boy!

  11. Dear Bobbie,
    I read an e-mail you sent to Children’s. I received it from my boss, who got it from Betsy Woods. I want to say thank you. Thank you for your trust, for your kindness, and for your generosity. I’m so very honored that you would name your precious daughter after me.
    Thank you again.
    Vicky Farris

  12. I did a search for Dum Dum lollipops and that is what led me here. I am doing a scrapbook page about my grandson and needed a pic of a Dum Dum lollipop…that’s why I was searching.

    Anyway, I want to tell you how sorry I am that TJ is no longer with you, but I am happy that you were blessed with that sweet little guy as long as you were. Looking at these pics, I could just eat him up. Absolutely precious!

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