Quizzes and time challenge at the bottom….

You Should Get a MD (Doctor of Medicine)

You’re both compassionate and brilliant – a rare combination.
You were born to be a doctor.

I don't think they factored in the whole faint when I see blood thing. :lol:

What the House Test Says About You

You consider yourself important, but no more important than anyone else. You love attention, but you don't feel like you deserve more of it than anyone else.

You can't stand community oriented people and annoying "buy local" campaigns. You prefer to live the best life possible, and that doesn't really involve many other people.

You are creative, expressive, and bright. You are always in the middle of some amazing project.

You look attractive, but mostly because your rely on your natural good looks to get by.

You are moved by the most simple of things. You can find pleasure from a small, perfect moment.

Most of yesterday was spent going through things and searching for newspaper. We ate dinner and me and Stacey had mommy daughter time. We do this every Friday evening. Then all heck broke loose between Mike and Timmy’s mom so, I had to diffuse that situation. A full long day and very exhausting and I got a lot done. Well, I put a dent in it anyway. he he.

Happenings around here…

The past few days have been ugh.. That is all I can say about them. Timmy is back. Finally. And doing his best to annoy all of us. He has to readjust to our rules and is not having a good time doing it. But, it is looking hopeful.

We are going to be moving probably within the next couple of months so, I went and got boxes and am starting to go through stuff. We have a LOT of stuff. I tell you it is ridiculous how much we have. Oh yeah I have to give a shout out to Dollar General. They gave us boxes and let me say they let us have as many as we wanted. My car was bogged down with them and the manager helped us get the good ones and even a few for the breakables that have separate compartments.

I am going through the kitchen today and getting rid of stuff and packing away stuff that we are not using. Freecycle is going to love me today. I also have a bunch of canned goods that I am donating to the church on the corner. They are a part of our church. I think you call it a seed church. People from our church started it. And they have a food pantry. Good thing is I don’t have to take it all the way to Northridge I can just drop it off right on the corner.

I am so not looking forward to going through our paper stash is what I call it. But, there is a lot of stuff in the filing cabinet that just needs to go and this is a good excuse to go through that also.

Oh Boy just not looking forward to it. While I’ll miss my big old house, this is a good decision for us. Mike took a really big pay cut and we have to cut back further than what we were and after the move I have to find a part time job. Which is ok with me. I can deal with that. I thought I didn’t want to. I was being selfish is what I was being. And I really need not to be. While I would love to just be home full time, right now that isn’t a possiblility so, I need to stop whinning and just do it.

The only thing that I am stressing about is the JT’s footprints that we painted on the wall. We did it two Halloween’s ago when he was still alive and it was blacklight paint for our halloween party. It was really cool especially with the strobe light too. It looks like he is walking across the wall. We left them up. It was just neat to have a piece of him still here even if it was footprints. I don’t really know how to explain it. I might scrape them off and but them in an envelope. I just couldn’t bear the thought of anyone painting over them.

When your child is gone you just hold on to everything about them. Some stuff you do let go of but, other stuff that probably makes no sense to the people on the outside means a lot and it is like dying another death if something happens to it. And really doesn’t make sense. I have a plaster cast of his hands and his feet from the day he passed away. I have so many scrap book pages where the nurses did handprints and footprints just because, that it is ridiculous. But, I know how many I have and how old he was when they were done. Just another piece of my baby is what it is.

Stacy and the camping debacle…

Stacy and her family are camping this week. Well, Monday night a horrific storm blew in about 2 o’clock. The lightning was terrible that started earlier than the rain. It seriously looked like Back to The Future out there when they are in the time machine and all the lightning goes everywhere.

Here is the trip before the storm:

Notice the happy family and the big old tent. That tent has many rooms. I didn’t know that tents could have rooms.

Here is the eating area.

Here is the kids’s little cheap tent as she calls it and the screened in tent.

Look at Meggie isn’t she just sooo cute? She can be mischievious too. I just love her to pieces… Oh yeah, that’s Stacy. She is Craaazzzeeee!

After the storm.

Stacy said that the tent was collapsing and it ripped and her and Shaun were trying to keep it held up and together and the water just started coming in and they couldn’t stop it. It was the hardest thing she ever had to do holding that tent up. Then finally agreed to abandon ship. The kids were scared to death. With all the wind, it was horrible.

The tent the next day when they went back to clean up.

The screened in eating area. Look at how the wind just bent it over.

The picnic table area.

The water still left in there in the morning.

This was a storm that just swept in for no reason. There was no news report on it. It was scary for me and I was in a house. I can just imagine how scared they were.

But, they are back at it until Thursday, so, pray with me that there are no more storms.

Time Challenge Day 2 totals

Up at 8
showered dressed 1/2 hour
checked e-mail and blogs 1/2 hour
cleaning kitchen, dining room, living room – 45 minutes
computer – 15 minutes
talked to Stacy 45 minutes ( She left to go camping until Thursday).
Talking to the kids, playing and just being together watching a movie 2 1/2 hours
Sitting in my room before I started to sizzle. ( We have no a/c Downstairs), and the neighbor took all the kids to her house for a couple of hours. 1 hour.
Started dinner, cleaned up kitchen again 1 hour
Eat and clean up 1 hour
Baths for the dirty kiddos 20 minutes
Hubby and I had a really long talk with Harley last night about attitude and the way she is presenting herself to people. I am not sure how long that took because when that was over I went to bed. I didn’t even look at the clock. lol.

See more productive than Sunday. thank Goodness.

Time Challenge…

Miss Iva at Horizontal Yo Yo is doing a time challenge.

The goal is to see how much time we waste and where we waste it. Well, yesterday. I wasted alot of it everywhere and you all are going to be completely aghast when you read this. But, to my defense when me and Stacy go a day without talking we have a lot to catch up on. lol. So, here goes.

Got up at 7
On the computer from 7 – 10:45
Talking to Stacy on the phone from 8:00 – 10:45 (See I can multi-task)
From 11 – 2:30 took a nap. Mikayla ended up in bed with us and I couldn’t sleep so, when her and daddy got up I went back to bed. I just didn’t plan on sleeping that long.
From 2:45 – 4:00 – Spent time with The Man and the little child
4:00 – 4:30 Showered and dressed for Stacy’s mom’s party.
4:30 – 5:00 – Waited for Stacy to pick me up.
5:00 – 12:00 – At the party.
12:00 – Went to bed.

Sunday’s are my days off from cleaning. The most that I do is the dishes. But, this Sunday was weird in the fact, I didn’t go to church. I never cooked one thing and spent most of it either on the phone or at the party. So, this really isn’t a real depiction of how a normal day is for me. Now, the phone conversation. That is totally normal. Except I usually do stuff and not just sit on the computer. But, I didn’t and that is how my day went. lol. Hope you all enjoyed see how much I DIDN’T do yesterday. Today will be better.

Get to know me.

I got this from For His Glory Academy Enjoy

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:00
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Hancock and Get Smart
4. What is your favorite TV show(s)? I don’t know it is summer and I am really not watching anything.
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Nothing
6. What is your middle name? Lee
7. What food do you dislike? any kind of tofuish bean curdish stuff
8. What is your favorite CD at the moment? The one I made.
9. What kind of car do you drive? Olds
10. Favorite sandwich? Cheeseburger off the grill with mayo, mustard and lettuce
11. What characteristics do you despise? Liars
12. Favorite item of clothing? anything that’s comfy
13. If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? China always wanted to go there but, will never make it because I am deathly afraid of airplanes.
14. Favorite brand of clothing? whatever fits and feels comfortable
15. Where would you retire to? My house
16. What was your most recent memorable birthday? I don’t really have a recent one. When I was 21 I Celebrated my birthday with my two small children at Chuck E Cheese. We had a blast.
17. Favorite sport to watch? Dont’ watch it.
18. Furthest place you are sending this? my blog
19. Person you expect to send it back first? Have no clue
20. When is your birthday? May 23rd.
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? Morning
22. What is your shoe size? 8
23. Pets? 2 cats Bear and Spaz 1 dog Precious
24. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share with us? Nope
25. What did you want to be when you were little? A teacher and a Nurse
26. How are you today? Great just got up
27. What is your favorite candy? hmmm… reese cups
28. What is your favorite flower? Carnations
29. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? Today, I get to go to a party.
30. What is your full name? Roberta Lee. Don’t tell anyone, I don’t answer to that first name. 😆
31. What are you listening to right now? the fan
32. What was the last thing you ate? banana cream pie at our birthday party cook out last night.
33. Do you wish on stars? no
34. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? red
35. How is the weather right now? HOT
36. Last person you spoke to on the phone? The Man
37. Favorite soft drink? Sprite.
38. Favorite restaurant? Golden Corral or Chinese Buffet
39. What is your hair color? Black
40. What was your favorite toy as a child? Anything Holly Hobby or Strawberry Shortcake
41. Summer or winter? Winter
42. Hugs or Kisses? Both
43. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
44. Coffee or Tea? Don’t drink either one
45. Do you want your friends to email you back? If they like
46. The last time you cried? I plead the fifth on that one.
47. What is under your bed? nothing that I know of but, there could
48. What did you do last night? watched Andy Griffith
49. What are you afraid of? being alone
50. Salty or Sweet? both
51. How many keys on your key ring? 8
52. How many years at your current job? 5
53. Favorite day of the week? every? Saturday
54. How many towns have you lived in? 2
55. Do you make friends easily? no
56. How many people will you send this to? none

If you choose to join me and post this on YOUR blog leave me a comment so we can get to know YOU!

Rib Fest was Awesome!!! And I am not only talking about the ribs!

Oh my Goodness where do I start?? I guess from the beginning. That would be a good place huh?

I went to pick up Stacy after the Man got home from work. We stopped at the store then I had to run something back to the Man. We finally made it to the Cemetary and as I was getting out I noticed that my car was smoking. Stacey said that we better raise the hood because obviously it was hot and it sounded like it was bubbling. So, we did. My overflow tank was bubbling and hissing and spitting. I have never seen anything like it. I mean you could just see it bubbling. Like water boiling on a stove. I wasn’t even trying to be to concerned about it. I just figured we would let it cool down. We had planned to spend about an hour there anyway so, hopefully by then it would be cooled down.

We went and said hi to JT. Stacey brought a pinwheel to put on his grave. At first it wouldn’t go in the ground because the ground was to hard but, she worked it in there. We went to go look at the grave of another little boy whose headstone they had just put in. His name was Peyton, we found out. And he passed away a year after JT on the 16th of May a day before JT’s first Anniversary. We then went and sat down next to JT and we started talking and we told him we were staying for about an hour anyway he didn’t have to make the car bubbly. Just joking around. And also about how we never see other parents. I was going there daily for about the 1st 6 weeks and never did I see anyone else. We didn’t mean this in a bad way just an observation. We were just wondering when they snuck in around us and decorated the graves. Then we went to visit the other babies. We loved seeing that even after 50 years a lot of the babies still had people visiting them.

Stacy’s Granny’s family also has a baby in the baby section so we found him. His name is Johnny. He would have been around 40 years old. Granny decorates his grave also along with her family that is buried there across the way. As we were walking back, someone pulled up, it was a man. He got out of his van and went to visit a grave. He was visiting Peyton. As we were walking back to JT we felt really uncomfortable, because while we had never seen anyone here. We didn’t know what we would do in that situation. He walked right over to us and asked us which baby was ours. We showed him and he made us feel really comfortable. We talked for a long time. Just talking about our sons and how hard this thing called grief was.

This was a new thing for me. Besides grief group, I had not spoken to anyone who had just recently lost a child in Real life. I talk to mothers on the computer. I feel their pain by their writing. I sit and cry as I am reading. Standing face to face with a grieving father, the emotions were just churning inside of me. The hurt and the grief he never hid it. It was right there for everyone to see.

After he left, we realized, that on this day, the day that is all about JT for us. Our day alone that we don’t share with anyone else, something was orchestrated for a reason. It all fit together. The car overheating, our conversation, meeting another grieving parent. hmmm… wonder who did that one? lol

So, I had another first. I thought that I was done with firsts. But, obviously, God had something else in store for us.

I am in a different place then I was last year. I don’t have my doubts. I am not grasping at any and everything about where my son is. I know where he is. I know he is dancing at Jesus’ feet. My heart is at Peace. It has been for some time now.

It is so nice to have that one day a year with just Stacy. We shared an awesome thing when I let her into our lives and we shared JT. I couldn’t have done it without her. She was my other half. We worked really well together gathering info about his condition (s) and asking the hard questions. God knew what he was doing. And even though JT is with Jesus, we still have an awesome friendship. I was really scared after JT passed away that we would no longer have anything in common. That our friendship would just pass away also. But, it has just made our friendship stronger.

And for that I also thank God for. She has been there for me and if she ever needs me she knows I will be there for her too. No questions asked.

We went around the corner to the park. Ate some ribs, corn, mac n cheese and sat and listened to the jazz. We kept running from the sun because I am allergic to it. I self dianosed myself. lol. I just don’t like to be hot. We finally got a good shady seat up on the hill. The 8 o’clock band wasn’t as good as the man last year. Last year’s person was more entertaining and it lasted longer. But, we still enjoyed ourselves. After it was over, we sat and talked about JT and everything that had happened that day. It was very calming and nice after most of the people had left and the sun had went down. We enjoyed it and can’t wait until next year to do it again.

Sorry, I guess I had a lot to say, I hope that you made it through all of that. lol