To do’s for this weekend…

Kitchen, needs a big old deep clean. So…

Dishes, of course
counters, cabinets, stove, washer/dryer, and fridge.

Steam clean the carpet.

Dining Room, this just needs reorganized.

Reorganize the packed boxes. Clean off table (maybe it will be used for eating at again someday). Clean microwave off and out.

Living room, need to pack the rest of this up.

Entertainment Center, everything packed except for the tv and dvd player of course. All movies packed.

Mikayla’s toy corner needs pared down considerably. Like by about 2 boxes full. She keeps finding the packed toys and toting them back down stairs.

Pack away all the coats that are on the coat hooks, just leave everyone a jacket out. It is supposed to be summer this weekend after all isn’t it?

Get the rest of my sewing stuff packed and give away that china cabinet on freecycle.

That should keep me busy for a while. The girls aren’t going to be here so, Mikayla and I need something to do. lol.

Oh yeah, and laundry, lots and lots of laundry. I found the mother lode yesterday, and I am not happy about it, (honey!!!!))))!!!!!!

Well, there’s my weekend. How are you spending yours?

Oh pooh I keep forgetting it is my birthday tomorrow. Oh well, I’ll probably remember next week. lol

American Idol finale…

Well, as much as I was slightly ticked because Kris Allen won, I feel better about it today. I loved Adam from the beginning. He rocked it, he changed things, he took risks, and he has a scream that rivals Robert Plant from Led Zepplin. One of the highlights for me from the finale last night was when Adam joined Kiss. How awesome is that? He started out with Beth. I haven’t heard that song in years and I love it. And oh my the platform shoes he had on….wow!

When kiss came out, Mikayla went, hey there’s the Doctor, the doctor of Love. She has been watching too many commercials. lol. But, anyway, not sure how long this will be up or if it will even play, but, I’ll leave you this…..

2 year Angelversary… 05-17-09…

My Dearest Bubbas,

I can’t believe it has been two years. Two whole years since I looked upon your face and touched your warm body and held you in my arms. Two years of heartache and brokeness, and aching arms. Two years of trying to figure out what my place in life is. Two years of just plain downright missing you so much.

But, it has also been two years of healing, remembering, and laughing at the memories that we share. Remembering the love and warm snugglies and the kisses and the hugs. Remembering the fat chunky cheeks that I love to smoosh and kiss and pinch. I bet sometimes you thought I was that annoying Aunt everyone loves to avoid who can’t help but come up to you and smoosh your cheeks and gives you weird stuff for presents on holidays. But, I know we loved every moment of it. I could tell by the laughter in your eyes. It was an awesome ride that I wish never had to end.

I have stopped reliving the day you left us in our mind. I thought that if I stopped that the pain would go away and that it would make me forget you. But, the memories and good times replaced it and I remember. I know now that I will never forget you. But, there was always that fear that I would. I am so glad I have reached the milestone to where I know with out a doubt you will always be in my heart and my memories until I see you again.

This will always be the day to me that you were healed. Wholely and completely. I know alot of people don’t get it but, that is a day to be celebrated. You fought so long and hard and had so much hardship in this life that when you left us, it was a very hardwretching, words can’t describe feeling. But, on the other hand, it was also a day to be celebrated because you were with Jesus. You could breathe, there were no more tubes, and medications and just everything else that you endured during this lifetime. This is also our day to remember you. We make it special as you know and it is all for you. Because you deserve to be remembered, with love, not sadness, or bitterness. But, with the love that we all hold in our hearts for you, and always will.

Ok, seriously Bubba, I feel like I should break out with the song keep smiling, keep shining, knowing you can always count on me. That’s what friends are for.. Sorry, mommy’s humor breaks out in the weirdest times.

So, while there might be a few tears shed today. We are going to make sure that they are happy tears. Tears of love and rememberance just for you.

Love you so much!!!

Love Mommy!

p.s. Don’t forget to eat that chocolate pudding for me!

I thought this was it…

I was having contractions all day yesterday. Nothing I couldn’t handle. I figured they were Braxton Hicks. But, everything on me was hurting. My back, my legs, my belly, you name it. I finally about 8:00 last night called Stacy and told her that she needed to be Dr. Google for me and google preterm labor and she did and I fit like 5 out of the 7 things. So, after trying to get a hold of the doctor, who still hasn’t called back. I called the birthing center and they told me to come in. They said that I needed to trust my body and if that meant coming in then that is what I needed to do. So, we went in.

And can I say, we had the most hilarious nurse ever! You could tell that she loved her job. It was just too cool. She got me all hooked up and we monitored everything. The baby looks great. But, it seems that I have a Urinary Tract Infection (UTI). That is what is causing my uterus to be grumpy as she put it.

Stacy really wanted to have a baby last night. I realized I wasn’t ready yet. I got scared. I didn’t tell her that though. I was just going with it. But, knowing her she already knew. She also spilled a whole bunch of water on me last night. Thanks for the shower by the way. lol.

Even in that situation, we are crazy together. All we did was laugh so hard and had a great time. I was laughing so hard after she spilled the water on me the monitor was going crazy. The baby was flippin around everywhere. Really, I think you had to of been there. And she kept playing with my feet. And tickling them to make me laugh even harder.

But, anyway, I got an antibiotic, and then had to wait another 20 minutes then I could start ripping everything off and got to leave. Now, I must rest and drink plenty of fluids. So, false alarm last night. But, soon it will be the real thing. I am 35 weeks today. Only 4 more weeks until that c-section. Woo Hoo!!

All the kids are home today because our roof has sprung a leak and they have been up since the wee hours getting everything that we have packed and put up there out of there out of there and they are exhausted, so, I am going to go back to bed and they can take care of Mikayla today.

Everyone have a great day!!!!

God Bless!!

Please pray for the Freeman Family…

Kayleigh Anne Freeman left this world last night at 11 months old. She survived so much and fought so hard. Please say a prayer for her family.

A Mikayla funny…

This happened last week. Mikayla likes sleeping in our room sometimes and she’ll bring in her little pull out couch thingy and sleep on the floor. We don’t mind it, we actually like it. She usually sleeps with Ashley and has for over two years now. Something Ashley started and I wasn’t too happy with at first, but, hey I guess if they were happy about it why even fight it. Here is how she broke the news to Ashley:

Mikayla: Ashley, we have to talk.

(Music blaring in the background, Mikayla walks over to it and turns it off)

Mikayla: That’s better! Ashley we have to talk!

Ashley: OK

Mikayla: I am going to go sleep in Mommy and Daddy’s room. You will be ok. You don’t need me anymore. You will be fine. Ok

Ashley: (Trying to contain her laughter) Ok

Mikayla: Remember you will be ok.

Mikayla walking out the door, “You will be fine!” Slams the door.

Ashley bursting out in mad laughter.

Then a couple of days ago, this is the conversation she had with Harley…

Walks into Harley’s room, music blaring louder than Ashley’s, if that is at all possible, shuts off Harley’s radio. Something that could get you killed if she was in a bad mood by the way. You don’t touch her radio. lol

Mikayla: Harley, we have to talk!

Harley: Ok, what do you want. (Harley is a little more vocal than Ashley).

Mikayla: I love you, I like you, I want to marry you!

Harley: Oh you do really?

Mikayla: Yep! I love you! Good-bye!

I know where she gets this. I always say, we have to talk and if the tv is on I shut it off. Just another example of how much the little ones pick up on and try to emmulate you. And this time it was ooh so cute! lol

Have a blessed day!



Today is her birthday. She is the big 15. One more year and she will be driving!!! Jim Carey eye bulging moment. And in 3 years she will be :big gulp: 18!!!!!

I really miss my little girl but, she is growing up and becoming a woman. I am not sure I like that. lol. Goodness Gracious when you have kids, you think about their future, but, for them to actually leave or get close to leaving home no matter how teenagery they may be at them moment. It is totally breaking my heart.

I know I know, I will still have plenty of children at home to keep me company, but, my first baby will be leaving the nest. I can’t believe I have been a mom for 15 years. I have been her mom longer than I have been anything else in my life. Unbelieveable that I have stuck with something that long. I am going to be real here and serious.

I always thought that I would loose my children. My grandparents lost my mom and her siblings to children services and my mom lost all of us to children services. So, I just figured that history was going to repeat it’s self no matter how hard I worked at it and by the time she was 9 they would take all my children. But, I worked so hard at being a mom and working and doing the right things and getting out of a really bad abusive relationship with her father and went to church and prayed and asked for help when I needed it and it didn’t happen.

I broke the cycle. Can you believe it??? I broke the cycle. The curse of the Brown’s didn’t hit me. Well, ok, if you count being poor, well, then it did, but, I’ll take that over losing my kids to Children Services any day. I didn’t do it by myself though. There were many people along the way that helped me and who I have learned from. And alot of trial and error. There would be no way to thank all of them. I don’t remember all their names, or even what they look like. But, they were an integral part in who I am as a mother today.

And I never forgot to take it to the Lord in prayer. When Ashley was little she would be able to prayer for something and seconds later it would be fixed. I remember we had a flat tire and we had been working on it for over and hour and it had some weird lug nuts on it and we just couldn’t get the thing off. She looked at me and said mommy just pray. Then she said, “God, could you help us get this tire off so that we can get home and change Stacey, she stinks and we left the diapers at home? In Jesus Name, Amen”

Don’t you know by the time she said Amen, that lug nut broke free like it was butter. And we were on the road and ready to go with in 15 minutes. That is child like faith right there and God answering even the craziest request and that of a 4 year old no less.

I wish I had that child like faith. I used to have it but, some where it got lost along the way. I would love to get it back again. I guess I better pray about it huh?? lol.

My baby is 15 today. She is up and grumpy but, I still love her, warts and all. Happy Birthday Baby girl!!

Baby Shower… Picture heavy…

We had a great time!!! I only won one game of bingo but, hey you win some you loose some. lol

Here goes the pics…




This is what little Stacey bought to bring her home in.




This play pen does everything. You can even hook an mp3 player up to it. How cool is that?

I think I got one thing from everyone on there. I hope so. I tried. lol

Oh yeah, one more:


Stacy’s granny chasing a balloon across the golf course. lol.