A day at Stacy’s house…

Tori spent the day with Big Stacy last Wednesday and they had a photo shoot here are some pics from that day! Thanks for uploading them for me Stacy!!!


A little bit of wonderful…

This past week has been totally awesome. My whole pregnancy, I never thought that I would be leaving the hospital with a baby. I didn’t get my hopes up to high, and I didn’t get too excited. I just couldn’t imagine it. Leaving the hospital with a baby the same time that I did. It wasn’t feasible to me. But, I did. Thank you Jesus so much for answering my prayers far more than I ever expected.

Tori-Beth is just awesome. She is beautiful beyond words. I love to kiss her little chunky cheeks. The girls all love her and her daddy is totally infatuated with her. Not to mention Stacy, who I think if I turned my head would steal her right out from under me. She is soo loved.

Ever since watching Biggest Loser this last season and watching Philpe and Sione’s journey, I have totally come to love the Tongan culture. So, that is why I call her my little Tongan Princess. Especially with her little flower dress on and her little flower headband. I would put up a picture but, wordpress still isn’t letting me for some reason. Bad, bad wordpress.

I am just so thankful I am sitting her tired as I don’t know what, because I had to get up in the middle of the night to feed her. Tired because I can do nothing but, hold her. I love to feel her weight in my arms and just close my eyes and live in the moment. She makes the funniest faces and hardly ever cries. I know the crying part will probably not last, but, I love that part too. I guess I just wanted to say, she is totally awesome!! And I am going to enjoy it all.

We are home…

We came home a day earlier than we thought we would. But, it is so good to finally be home. Tori-Beth is doing great. She sleeps so sound. You could set fire crackers off next to her and I don’t think she would move. I am still very sore, but, that is to be expected. And I am very tired, but, being in my own bed will cure that one.

Tori-Beth is soo cute. I totally forgot that babies don’t have teeth and almost asked where hers were. Anesthisia will do that to ya. She looks like a little Tongan Princess. She has the fatest cheeks and so much hair, I just knew that heartburn was going to be worth it. lol.

As soon as I feel better I will post some more pics. I just still can’t believe what a perfect little gift I got to leave the hospital with. Now, I must get back to her because well, I don’t trust anyone with her. lol

more pics

This is still Stacy. I just wanted to let everyone know that Bobbie is doing great. I thought you would like to see some more pictures. She is just soooo cute.

Tori-Beth is here

This is Bobbie’s friend Stacy just giving you an update. Tori-Beth was born at 5:57pm this evening weighing in at 7pounds. She is healthy, perfect and beautiful. I though you would love to see some pictures.

Today is the day…

I have been contemplating writing my feelings about how I feel about this day because, I don’t want to seem sad and ungrateful for the new life that will be coming into this world today. But, I like to be honest about how I am feeling. That is why I started this blog. To be true to my feelings on grief and losing my son, and how I am living through it. And I think this part of my journey is another side of living through the grief. Because it is still there. It may be masked for the moment, but, there is not a time when JT is not with me in the back of my mind. And I think he is happy for us. I really do. I think he is sitting right here sometimes watching over us and thinking we are still as crazy as he once thought and I know he is going to celebrate with us the moment that Tori-Beth gets here.

There are three people that I don’t thank enough that I want to take the time to.

First and foremost is God. (ok, this is starting to sound like a music award acceptance speech). Without Him moving in my life and moving me, I would probably be curled up in a ball still not living my life. Just knowing that He has a hand in everything I do is nothing short of awesome. The awesome gifts that he has given me, 6 children who are nothing short of a blessing no matter how crazy they get is just beyond me. That he would trust me with them all, no matter how long they are with me is miraculous.
For holding me up when I couldn’t hold myself up or no one knew how to help me, He did. He was there. He never left me. There were times when I left him for a moment, but, he was always there waiting patiently for me to call out to Him again and ready to take my hand and gently guide me along.

Thank you God!

To my husband: Who puts up with the pregnant crazy, sometimes lost her mind self. Who provides for us and is more active with our children than I give him credit for. Who wants the best for me and doesn’t care how mad I get when I want more carbs than I am suppose to have and just tells me to deal with it. lol. This pregnancy journey hasn’t been easy on either of us because of the fears that we have both have. But, I think together we have weathered really well.

To my best friend Stacy: Thank you for being right there beside me and letting me talk your head off about how paranoid I am and how scared I am and for just listening. Thanks for letting me share JT anytime I need to. You don’t know how much that means to me. Thank you for going to all the doctor’s appointments with me. We make it fun and the time has just flown by. We are both crazy, and can finish each other’s sentences and know what the other is thinking it is crazy how in tune we are with each other. Only God can give a person a friend as special as you.

So, let’s go have this baby people’s!!!!!!

Only a few more hours Tori-Beth!!! Then we get to see just exactly who you are!!! And I so totally can’t wait!!!

Gonna have a baby tomorrow..

Tomorrow is the day. I have to be at the hospital at 2:30 and will be having her sometime between 4:30 and 5:00 pm. Woo hoo!~